maybe he was just raised that way. maybe he was simply a product of his environment. maybe he had no choice but to be that way. but whatever he was, he passed along some of that way to me. and now i am forced to come to terms with the person i have become. was i like him? i try not to be. but it's not easy when you only know one way. and so i remain conscious of my weaknesses because i have seen them before. in him. and i know i do not want to go down that path again. like he probably tried not to go down that path when he was in my shoes. there are other examples, i remind myself. there are better paths to follow. i remember that he once attempted to defend his record. but i was too headstrong to care. and so i dismissed him. like my children may one day dismiss me. for there are days of contentment and there are days of regret. and i have resigned myself to the fact that there will always be both. yet i am aware that my lament is mostly of my own doing. and that there are worse fates to suffer than my own. but the reality of my situation still remains.
"spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart." - author unknown
p.s. um, i think she meant to include my wife. i think.
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"spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart." - author unknown
ReplyDeleteHi Sir, you know I was one of your student this summer. I like the way you write. Anyway, this post is so true I like the quote. When i was growing up I remember that one day my parents stop talking to each other, they stop caring for each other and I used to wondering why they stop loving each other. I still remember when I was young (4-5ish) they used to hug and kiss and know they don't even talk, they only talk when one need something or they talk something about the house or me or my sister, so anyway I am older now and I feel like my childhood was robbed because all of my friends had they parents and they were always nice and lovely and my parents they just weren't any more. I wish my parent divorced I think I would had have been happier that way. Anyway I am sure that you have nothing to worried, i am sure you are good to your beautiful girls all three of them.
Thanks for this post I am sure that I will do my best to to make the same mistake that my parents did.
3 daughters??? really sir?
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